So, the 3 year olds were home for "spring break" a couple of weeks ago. The 6 year old's school did not have a spring break this year...so it was just me and the little guys. All 3 of us mostly had colds so we hung around the house mostly... the whole time.... me... and them...
Monday morning....back to school! WAIT. Duncan has a fever. NOOOOO! I already had my ME time planned for the day. He can't possibly have a fever...well isn't this ALWAYS how it goes. I felt SO resentful, angry and on top of it all...guilty.
Off we went to the walk-in clinic and my little bug had a double ear infection. We spent most of the rest of the day cuddling and my guilt and anger subsided a bit but I still felt "the cloud."
It scared me how close the "cloud" was... I have been feeling really clear and pretty good for weeks and then BOOM I felt really down quickly. It scared me how close to the surface it all was. I worked hard not to let it snowball...and I was afraid of how quickly that could happen, too.
On Tuesday I felt better and was only slightly annoyed with the fact that the little boys were sick. The day before, on Facebook, I asked friends to share how they would bounce back from this kind of setback. The response that really resonated with me was to get rid of the guilt! It's ok to be pissed off! And it's also okay and it's great to recognize that I turned to my usual coping mechanisms when I got stressed and upset.
I think recognizing all of that made Tuesday better. Cheers...
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